What’s in a joke?

First, let me make you aware of what i am going to blog about and why.

Let me put events in my life in the past back here, for a moment:

One sunny day in the “past”, I looked at myself and asked – who am i?

At first, i attempted to answer this question by going to different groups – different religions. I found out i can “evolve to a point” where “i can be enlightened”. I did what they said and “thought” i was “enlightened”.I was just having a delusion that i am enlightened- don’t take me seriously here!
(Equality Joke!)

At first, because i did not know who to ask and what to do -i figured “someone has to save me” – so i went to a church offering someone who can save me (or so i “thought”, lol!).

When i figured i will be saved, i told myself i can relax. So, I did, until- I looked at myself and noticed that i lie – that after i lie i ask that savior for forgiveness, then i lie again. This created stress within me (why? I know i am a deceiver! so i said to myself, Fuck! how can i cover this up? lol!
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Note:
***Equality Joke – a joke where i can self-honestly look at myself and say, fuck! i am self – dishonest, i will cover it up – and because i am tired of covering it up – i ask myself how i can be self -honest again
and find ways of stopping – changing – and birthing me here as self as all as one as equal to/as all that exist.

I enrolled in a course that will teach me how to see my own self-dishonesty – so i can be self- honest again). The Equality ID# 166. The Equality name: June Roca.
I am enjoying myself! I can see.
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Continuation:

I then looked at how i can control my mind so i will not lie. It’s giving me stress to think i, as the personality, lies. I know i am not that personality/ego that lies. I am just making a fool of who i really am – that is stressful, lol!

So, i attended a meditation lecture where the guy said that there is a word – a mantra – that i can say in my mind – that will erase all my “unwanted thoughts” – so i did the process. The only problem is – i can’t be excited when i want to – because the mantra is suppressing my feelings and emotions – as I as the personality exist as energy – so i have to have the ups and the downs- that’s defines me, and my “happiness”, lol!

I then went to study a meditation technique that will allow me to participate in the mind more – so i found a technique that will allow me to be who i am as the personality/ego – a meditation technique that makes me think that- i am one with the “divine” as that personality – isn’t that hilarious? lol – one deception after another.

The funny thing is i did not know i was doing a process that will get me into the mind. I “thought” i was truly becoming one with that supreme entity, lol – this is “supreme deception”. I did not realize that if i am one and equal as all life – which the teacher also agree – a supreme entity cannot exist.

When i saw myself as special, which means, a little less than being “enlightened” – a deception – i was in delusion – i did not realize that i am one and equal as life itself and nothing could be “more special” than that. Lol, what was funny was that i was unaware that i am unaware!

That is when i met the beast – this guy busted everything i believed – he pointed out the truth that i am programming myself, believing that and manifesting it as if it was real- he said i was just deceving myself and that i am in a delusion – it was not real! That was a wake-up call!

So, i am blogging to expose how i, as the personality – participate in the mind – as thoughts, feelings and emotions – and show you how i stop myself from participating using the tool – self-forgiveness.

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I would like to share with/as you an event – a story – of how i deceived myself – and how i used self-forgiveness – self-honesty and commonsense – from the starting point of what is best for all.

*Self-honesty– I thought i was special because i was correcting someone – until i lied and tried to hide that lie in the form of a joke – using the same point- that i corrected another for.

Here’s the event:

L called me and asked me to look at a cartoon in youtube. I asked him, “who’s video is this? He said i don’t know. I watched it. He asked me what’s my assessment of the video. So, i gave him my assessment. While we were driving to the restaurant to eat, he said “you know that i made the video i showed you, right?” I said the cartoon video? He said yes, i said, “how did you do the video? He said “it’s easy to make one. I said, show me how to make one. It’s cool. At that moment i saw that that was self-deception – he said, “but i was just joking, i want to hear your objective assessment of it . We both saw that there is a lie hidden within that joke – so he did self-forgiveness for that.

After eating at the restaurant we went to watch a movie, the Smurfs. The Smurfs were colored blue, and in that movie, after the Smurfs went back to their planet, the earth’s moon turned blue. After we watched the movie as we go back to the carpark, i looked at the sky and saw the moon was out. Jokingly, i said to L, “Look at the the moon, it’s blue! – at that moment i saw that i lied but i hid it – and said it as a joke.
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My take on this:

We laugh to hide our self-dishonesty most of the time. There are jokes that discriminate – Asian jokes. There are jokes that make people less than others – which is a form of judgment- blonde jokes. We have heaven jokes where we laugh at our beliefs.
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Example #1

Blonde Joke:
taken from http://www.jokeswarehouse.com

A blonde woman competed with a brunette woman and a redheaded woman in the Breast Stroke division of an English Channel swim competition. The brunette came in first, the redhead second. The blonde woman finally reached shore completely exhausted.

After being revived with blankets and coffee she remarked, “I don’t want to complain, but I think those other two girls used their arms.”
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What i see in this:

Here is an example of a joke. We use jokes to get people to laugh or to break the ice in a party – which i used to do in the “past”. I used to tell everyone jokes so that they feel comfortable with me as the personality/ego.The personality wants to be accepted by others so it will survive as the personality -because it has fear of not existing as the personality/ego – its biggest fear. The personality is limited in scope – because that personality perceived itself separate from all life.

Most of us like to laugh because we like to hide to ourselves – delusion – the condition the world is in. We can see the mess in this world – the suffering – and so we use laughter to make it appear everything is okay.Telling a blonde joke is one way we can laugh.But let’s look at what we’re doing when we tell blonde jokes. By the way they are called – dumb blonde jokes.

There’s Judgment here.There is also competition here.

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*Self-forgiveness
It releases me from the past. Stopping myself and breathing brings me here in every moment of breath – when i see it. Then, changing my operating basis next time i am faced with the same situation again

Self-forgiveness statements:

*I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to make me feel special when i correct L – as i see myself more than him and him less than me – as i believe that is so according to my judgment – which is how i compete with him – and be jealous of him sometimes when i perceive him as more than me – and so as i participate in this mind gossip – i support the bigger gossip – that is capitalism – where from my individual mind participation i generate this current monetary system that is based on unequal distribution of money- ’till here no further – i will stop my mind.

*I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge blondes as more than me and so i put them down in my jokes – making them less than me – as i am jealous because i judge them as more than me – as i believe their form looks better than my form – a judgment based on my belief that blonde hair is beautiful because it is rare – and black hair is not as beautiful because it is common – and within this i generate and support a gossip – which supports the bigger gossip – that is capitalism – which is based on unequal distribution of money – ’till here no further – i will stop my mind .

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Commonsense:
*I have to stop my participation so that i will not support this current monetary system based on inequality – that supports the separation in this world- rich and poor etc.
*I have to stop and breath when i see myself about to tell “dumb blonde jokes”
*I have to support an equal money system so that i am not impulsed to see people as unequal and separate from each other – stopping the support to the current monetary system – stopping the manifestation of inequality in the world.

What is best for all:
I stop participation because this is not what is best for me and not what is best for all.

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