The next day when we arrived in Los Angeles, i saw the bag where we put the raw food while we were inside the airplane -on the table, so i asked LP, “Did you put the rawfood inside the refrigerator”? He moved his head left and right and said “that’s why i did not put it inside the refrigerator”. So, i asked him again the same question. He repeated the same answer. I asked him the same question the third time and then he said : i told you already,”no”. So, i pointed out that he did not say “no”.
While correcting him, i saw my hand gestures and how i used these to emphasize the points i was talking to him about, and i saw that what i was really saying is this, “if this is not raw, this will be spoiled by now”. When i told him this, he said he had a thought while talking to me, “that can’t be spoiled because that’s rawfood.”
These are backchats. In this blog i am directing this point of correcting LP while i myself participate in backchats -which are conversations inside our mind – and using hand gestures to express judgment. I am using self-forgiveness and self-correction.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to use my hand gestures to express judgment to LP as i see myself less than him because he did not put the rawfoods inside the refrigerator – and me more than him – because i am making sure that the rawfood is refrigerated.
When and as i see myself using my hands to express judgment – and see LP as less than me because he did not put the raw foods inside the refrigerator – i stop – i breathe. I realise that i can see his points but i am oblivious to mine. I stop participating because this is not what is best for me and not what is best for all – because i will be supporting personality systems in this world based on using hands/body movements to express judgment.
Self-forgiveness and self commitment as all – as i am part of all life:
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to judge because of a belief that raw food is good refrigerated and bad if not refrigerated – as i identify as the ego-personality – within backchat
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to communicate with others as the ego- personality – defined by knowledge and information – where i manipulate me to be more than who i am – by pretending to be a teacher or mentor (more than) or – manipulate me to feel less than who i am when i see i am participating as the mind – rather than be here as breath in every moment
I commit to stopping myself whenever i see myself judge someone because of a belief about raw food.
I commit to stopping myself when and as i see myself communicating with others as the ego-personality – defined by knowledge and information – where i manipulate myself to be more than who i am – by pretending to be a teacher or mentor of others.