What is it that makes me feel good sleeping in bed covered by a furry blanket in winter?
I was folding the furry blanket after waking up when i was trying to recall a blog i was about to do which was about an event that happened 4 or 5 days before. When i was looking at that point, i became aware of the fabric of the blanket i was folding. I knew i had a blog right in my hands.
When i was young, i used to touch the pillow case with my finger tips to make me sleep. The “feel” of the cotton pillowcase made me sleep. When i became an adult, i stopped doing that but what i noticed was that furry blankets give me a comfortable warm feeling during winter.
I am questioning this here in this blog. Who am i within this experience? This is me as the ego – personality perceiving myself separate from life. I am not here. The personality is here. I am the personality defined by my beliefs regarding what is comfortable and what is not comfortable. I connected the furry blanket to warmth. I defined warm weather as comfortable and cold weather as uncomfortable. I connected the furry blanket to warmth because it keeps me warm in winter.
I am directing this point in the parts of this blog that will follow where i will self-honestly look at how i have become the personality defining me within my beliefs and judgments about fabrics, textures and touch – and what i accepted and allowed. I will show how i am using self-forgiveness and self correction to birth me here as self as life – within this point.