What is it that makes my eyes open wide when i see a picture?
What is it that makes me like a picture better than other pictures?
What is it that makes me look at one picture longer than another picture?
I was looking at pictures of raw food preparations when i saw this picture. I saw my eyes open wide while i was looking at one in particular, a raspberry desert that was suspended in jelly. It was very subtle. I could not have been aware my eyes opened wide if i did not look 2 or 3 times. I did not have thoughts about eating it, but the widening of my eyes tell me i like what i saw in that picture.
Before i saw this picture of a raspberry dessert suspended in jelly, i saw another picture of a raw pizza dish that has mushrooms on top. I did not like the brown and black mushroom color on top of that pizza because i saw it as not colorful enough and unappetizing. I moved to the next picture as quickly as possible. I browsed through the album in a relaxed way, The time i spent in looking at each picture was consistent. I noticed when i changed my pace was when i saw the picture of a raspberry dessert. I stayed and looked a bit longer.
I asked myself the three questions i asked in the beginning of this article and i realized that i was connecting the picture to my belief about which food item/preparation was good based on what made me feel good and which food items/ preparations did not make me feel good. I judged the ones that made me feel good as better than the ones that did not made me feel good based on my experience.
“Was the one looking – me as the personality – defined by words i connected with pictures that i connected with judgments, experiences and feelings?” Yes. I connected this picture to memories in the past which made me believe that raspberries look like this picture and that i ate a raspberry and it had a taste i like and then judged the food as good. This i did because of the belief that i formed based on an experience in the past – which i had a memory of . When i was looking at the picture, it brought me to the past . When i looked at the past, i realize that i had a memory of when i was eating berries suspended in a kind of jelly like substance, and that they tasted good. I defined myself by that experience/memory, where i enjoyed eating some berries suspended in a jelly like substance. I manifested this mind process through manipulating my eyesopening wide and made the belief real. This happened in my mind. I used the physical body to manifest my belief.
I realized i am not here. The personality is here. I am trapped within the personality defined by pictures and experiences i connected to my beliefs, judgments, definitions etc. Pictures became more than (good) or less than (bad) what they really were through the definitions, beliefs, judgments i have given them.
If i continue existing this way and accept and allow this to happen again and again, i will be directed by pictures i see on TV, in the internet, magazines etc and be addicted to buying what i do not need, as i will be impulsed by the media through the pictures they put in their advertising – rather than me directing me here. So, to get out of this mind possession, I will forgive myself and then correct myself for accepting and allowing me to be directed by pictures. I will move myself to be here in every moment of breath directing me. As i stop my ego/mind/personality i will also make sure that i expose the personality systems that deliberately put pictures in their ad to impulse everyone to buy their product. I will not support personality systems that support the world systems that make this world the way it is.