I always wanted to know if there is a reality beyond what i see because i see only a limited part of existence bounded by the limits of what my eyes can see and the limits of knowledge and information that i see separate from me.
What is the substance where we all came from? I am awed by the very nature of what it is. All my life i did not stop looking for that who i really am. I know i am here and i am all that exist, but only in my mind. I want to live as me as who i really am here. I do not want to live a life of contradiction – where what i say and do represents me as that who is equal as all.
I prayed to God to let me see where i saw him as more than myself and me as less than himself – a judgment which i did not do self-correction for. What is it that make me see God as more than me -someone i have to pray to? I did not question that. I did not forgive myself for separating me from God where i compromised who i am as that who is equal to/as all . I did not correct myself.
I did meditation to Initially, i wanted to learn cosmic jumping because i saw the TM people levitating. But when their guru died i saw that he is still subject to life and death – that he still dies. What good is cosmic jumping if i will still die? I want to live forever. I know i am that who is eternal. I learned different lessons of meditations in the AM yoga group where we meditated on the cakra and visualized different colors emanating from it including the use of sounds to purify the cakra. I did meditate on my guru at the top of my head – believing i will be like him – where i saw him as more than myself and me less than myself. But my guru died. He was still subject to birth and death.
What happens when we die? I want to know exactly. Why was everything a mystery? I know that i am capable of being and living who i am as that who is equal to all. I am finding out everything about me and no one is stopping me – everr. This was my resolve. Then one amazing day i listened video that lead me to the answers about what happens after death. I stopped… THIS IS IT, the history of the interdimensional portal