Why do we define ourselves as the personality?
When L and i went to L’s dad’s house to meet him, one – two weeks after i arrived in Dallas, he asked me how old i am. I told him my age, i said 53. Then he asked me if i know how old his son was. I said 29 yrs old. H e asked me if i know that he never had a relationship before. I said yes, but that is not how i look at him. I told him that from my perspective he is one and equal as me as all life.
I knew that his age and anything that defines him according to his age, how he looks, how he dresses up or how he presents himself as to the way he moves and how he speaks is coming from the starting point of identification with the body. When i perceive myself separate from his male body because i have a “woman’s” body as per my sexual organs being different from him, that is me as a “woman” looking at him as a “man” as another person with a separate sexual orientation separate from me in space and time. My starting point would be from a point of separation. That is our personality as how we defined ourselves according to our sexual orientation. This is not real because the personality has no real physical existence. The body is real but the BELIEF that a form/body with a male organ is a man’s body and a form/body with a female organ is a woman’s body is NOT REAL
So, after seeing me a few times without hair, one day we visited him in his new restaurant. This time i wore a wig with long hair. I braided the hair and went to see him.
I looked at points that came up. When he saw me, he said, “wow, you’re beautiful”, and his eyes dilated quite a bit and he gazed at my picture presentation, with the braided hair wig, for about 10 minutes. I saw some movement within me. When i saw that, i stopped myself from participating in the feeling, “i feel good because you like how i look”. I breathed and then i decided to direct him as me, so i started talking to him about our process of birthing self here.
I told him that when i hear people say that, and i see myself “feeling good” about what they say, i do self-forgiveness for that. He said, “you do self-forgiveness for that?” I said “yes, and here’s my self-forgiveness statement, i forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good when others tell me i am beautiful, not realizing that thoughts, feelings and emotions are not real, because they are of the mind – they have no real physical existence”. Then he turned to L. He said, “did you complement her for how she looks?” L told him he did not have to, because we do self-forgiveness for identification with the body, including beauty. I saw his face turn from wide eyes and open mouth to just being here. it’s cool to see that.
We defined ourselves according to our personality because we accepted and allowed ourselves to be defined according to what everyone around us say and do. This allowance and acceptance made us think, speak and present ourselves the way we do because we saw everyone doing it that way. We did not look at the commonsensical point, that we are the breath in every moment here. We are here. we are not defined by the clothes , the make-up, the shoes and the jewelries we wear. We direct self here as the breath in every moment.
We say and do things according to what is best for all because we are one and equal as all life.
I forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to identify with the body
*Identifying as a woman separate from a man
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to identify as a woman separate from a man
*Identification to the clothes i wear
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to identify myself according to the clothes i wear
*Belief that some clothes are women’s clothes and some are male clothes.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to BELIEVE that some clothes are women’s clothes and some clothes are men’s clothes.
*Belief that make-up is only used by women
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to BELIEVE that when make-up is only used by women it is appropriate and when it is used by men it is inappropriate.
*Belief that when the hands and hips are loosely swayed, they are women’s movements and when they are swayed in a restricted way, it is men’s movement
*Feeling good when given a compliment
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to feel good when given a compliment.
*Connecting the bodywhich is real to a BELIEF that a form/body with a male organ is a man’s body and a form/body with a female organ is a woman’s body is NOT REAL.
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to connect the body, which is real to a BELIEF that a form/body with a male organ is a man and a form/body with a female organ is a woman, which is NOT REAL
*Fear of not existing as the personality or death of the personality/ego
I forgive myself that i have accepted and allowed myself to fear not existing or death as the personality/ego
Self corrective statement:
I am one and equal as women. I am one and equal as men. I am one and equal as all life. I am one and equal as beauty. I am one and equal as ugliness.
Self corrective application:
When and as i see myself feel good when i receive a compliment – i stop – i breath and let go. I realise that it needs my participation in the polarity of feeling good when i am given a compliment and feeling bad when ignored, for this to exist. I realise this is not what is best for me, and not what is best for all. I stop participating.
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