L and i went to a group i had been a member of in the past for 29 years. I stopped attending the group meditation 3 years ago as i started to do self-forgiveness for everything of the mind – i found out the mind is not real as it has no physical existence. 2 weeks ago, one Sunday, we went back and met the monk to talk about a possible fundraising for the group. He was glad to see me. I know that was the day they have group meditation, so i have aversion to go, but i went ahead to push through the aversion and also see points to do self forgiveness and do self correction. Before the meditation started, some members met with L and i at the living room and so they were also glad to see me as i introduced myself as a member who had been doing it for a long time (there is self-dishonesty here because i hid the fact that i stopped attending group meditation and is now doing self-forgiveness to stop mind participation).
When the meditation started, i told the monk that we were going out to get some fruits for everyone to eat after the meditation and that we will be back later ( hiding the fact that i really did not want to attend the group meditation because i stopped meditating 3 yrs ago). We returned when the meditation was finished with the fruits . The monk was wondering why i did not do meditation inside the hall. I had aversion telling him because i still like to talk to him about business ( having the belief that i need to be a member of the group for him to accept the fundraising offer).
Later that night, i talked to L and we agreed that it is best for all to be self-honest and tell him that i already stopped meditating. I decided to tell him the truth. We shared with him the self-forgiveness process and the website.
The monk’s concern was, if meditation was not needed then passing stool and walking will not be “needed”, but we still do those, so meditation is needed. I explained to him that meditation is of the mind, therefore not real, while passing stool and walking is a physical function.
When i used to meditate, i had the idea that meditation was happening in the unconscious – the seat of the “divine”. This came form knowledge and information i got from my guru (teacher) at that time which i accepted as my truth. I never challenged that. I was coming from the starting point that there is a “Supreme Consciousness”, where all came from. I missed the commonsensical point that we are one and equal as all so i believed at that time that there is someone more than myself , which is the guru/teacher, who can liberate me from bondage. I did not look at the commonsense that there are self living principles. Oneness and equality and working for what is best for all is the Principle of Life.. Other than that there’s just perceived separation and self-interest.
I researched in the internet after i got introduced to self-forgiveness. There were really 3 accounts on where we came from in my research. first that there was no God, second, that there was a god, that s “all good” and third, that there were inter-dimensional beings who programmed us so that we will not know who we really are, and programmed the chakras, the gurus and even the spiritual books, their followers and even people in power so that one day they can come and enslave us all here. When i saw that, i started questioning everything i believed. They allegedly that these dimensional beings also created our body. I tested self-forgiveness thoroughly and realised that this is indeed a gift for all of humanity – a tool that we can use to release the past. The self correction after the self-forgiveness is commonsensical, as when one stops behaving as the personality/ego, one has to birth oneself . Having applied it in all areas of my life and having tested it and how it works, i am sure that it works and that i can recommend this to everyone. This stuff is simple and it fucking works!
I decided to stop doing meditation 3 yrs. ago.
I investigated further and found self-forgiveness as a tool for deprogramming and releasing myself from the past. I also learned how to birth Self here and assist in creating heaven into as earth. Disregarding LIFE has to stop and should not happen again.
Points i saw within this:
*Perceiving the monk as separate from me
*Belief that someone will get what i am selling only because we belong to the same group
My Self-forgiveness Statements:
I forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to hide the truth from others because of the belief that if i do, they will like me and if i tell them the truth about me, they will not like me.
I forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to perceive the monk separate from me
I forgive myself that i accepted and allowed myself to be self-dishonest by not telling the monk that i do not do meditation anymore
Self corrective statement: I am self-dishonesty. I am self-honesty. I am hiding. I am no hiding. I am one and equal as all life.
Self corrective application: When and as i see myself hiding something so people will like me – i stop – i breath and let go. I realise it needs my participation in the polarity of liking and disliking for this to exist. I realise this is not what is best for me and not what is best for all.
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